i'm not fake.. ToT

why??
tell me..
what happened actually??
why you all said that i'm fake?
i'm 'two head snake'?
i'm not!!!
i mix with which gang,
it's non of ur business..
i'm not belongs to any gang..
i just want to be friend with all of you..
don't you all know,
I HATE GOSSIP?!
what you all told me,
i will just forget about them..
i won't tell anyone one..
i'm really dissappointed...
i didn't think before this will happen..

hmm...

最近。。。
很烦咯。。
也不懂怎么说。。
考完了，但生活很烦。。
我终于 update 我的部落格勒。。

不用中文了。。

很麻烦。。

nothing is imposible through the God's way?
someone said that to me..
but..
there's something that are really imposible to achieve..
isn't it?


i 'd learnt a lesson from my english tutor..
her husband involved in a car accidentand now still lying on the bed..
he's comma now..
just because a snatch thief hit his head.. *cruel*
my tutor is so tough..
although her husband wil die anytime, but she chose to continue to teach us..
because life is still have to go on..
no point to commit suicide and ended up our lives..
it doesn't worth..
i hope her husband will recover...


as mummy said..
in this world, there's no such thing. ---> BEST FRIEND.
the one who care us and protect us..
are our family members..
mummy and daddy will always stand by our side..
and now..
i believe in what mummy said..
friends can't give us what we want..


violin..
whee..
i'm going to pay full attention in it..
PMR ended..
it's time for me to practise my violin..
err..
i believe in PRACTISE MAKES PERFECT...


sis is coming back!!!
25th november..
wuhooo...
long time din talk secret with her..
she become more mature and open dy..
hahahaha..
i want to see her..
whether she;s still fat..
or fatter..
or thinner..
but, she always told us that she's slimmer now..
hahahaha...

i hope my mood will not swing anymore..

i'm really moody this few weeks..

don't know why..

i wanna scold people..

speechless.

i'm speechless.
i don't know what can i say.
i can't even describe my feelings now.
everything is so complicated.
maybe i'm the one who make it complicated.
maybe not.
i don't know.
nobody will know.
friends asked me.
i just don't know how to say.
how to start the story.
mummy asked me too.
my tongue twisted.
no words came out from my mouth.
it's really speechless.
=[
what happen?
who can help me?
nobody.
because no one know what am i thinking.
why?
because i don't like to talk about my secret to anyone..

hey.
don't misunderstanding.
it's not because L-O-V-E.

talk to me.

holidays coming.

band camp.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i want to go to kl.

accompany my dad.

my dad is everything.

don't disturb me during this school holidays.

if i were a boy...

IF I WERE A BOY.
what should i do?
i love this song..

If I were a boy

Even just for a day

I’d roll outta bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted then go

Drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls

I’d kick it with who I wanted

And I’d never get confronted for it.

Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he’s taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boyI could turn off my phone

Tell evveryone it’s broken

So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone

I’d put myself first

And make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’d be faithful

Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

(Chorus)

It’s a little too late for you to come back

Say its just a mistake

Think I’d forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you

You thought wrong

(Chorus)

But you’re just a boy

You don’t understand

Yeah you don’t understand

How it feels to love a girl someday

You wish you were a better man

You don’t listen to her

You don’t care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cause you’ve taken her for granted

And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

if i were a boy.
i will treat my girl friend very very good.
i will give her what she wants.
i will treat my parents very good.
i won't disappointed them.
i really will be a better man.

because i knew the girl's feeling

when being hurt.

the first time

the first time i updated my blog in this style..

C O L O U R F U L..

because,
now my life is colourful..
had brighten up..
i prefer colourful..
more than red n white now..

P E A C E..

the way i am.

L A B O U R D A Y .
friday was the labour day.
but i still had to go for 2 tuition.
at first,
i thought i had to attend 3..
145pm..
went to steven there...
he skipped some chapter again...
but,
he said it's for our own good...
he will continue teaching other chapter after this...
345pm..
went home ler..
mummy bought pizza for me..
yummy..
500pm,
i thought i had to attend this tuition class..
i waited for a long time outside the tuition centre..
i sms-ed my friends..
asked them whether today got tuition onot..
none of them replied..
then,
i had to call mr anthony ( my tutor )
he answered the phonecall loudly..
MR A : " hello?! "
ANN: "hello, mr anthony. "
MR A: " ah! yes! "
ANN: " i'm yeong. i want to ask whether today got tuition or not? "
MR A :" oh! nononono! no tuition class today due to the labour day."
ANN: " oh thank you. bye." ( *disappointed )
LENG KAH SUEN TOLD ME THAT GOT TUITION.
but then,
lks replied me at 6 pm.
she told me that today got no tuition.
i was like..
arghhh...
nevermind la.
it's okay.


SATURDAY.
mummy prepared some delicious food today.
cuz popo n aunty is coming..
yay.
ian boy is coming..
and of course.
he grow taller n naughtier already..
as usual,
2pm..
went to ILTI..
the boy sitting bside sam cheah is so annoying..
i just ignore him.
concentrate on my studies...
after tuition,
mummy said:" we are going to kampar tonight.."
okay..
then i pack up some clothes and get ready.
arrive there,
saw my other baby cousins there..
at night,
the environment is just like a nursery..
noisy*..
they run around the house..
scream as loud as they can..
and i...
*no eyes see*
study at upstairs...
then,
my cousin sister came..
she took a storybook..
and imitate my pose..
i was lying on the bed..
n she did it too..
what i did,
she just follow...
until my uncle scream...
" ah swan come and sleep now! didi sleep already!!!!!"
then,
she said bye bye to me n walked to the bedroom...


SUNDAY.
early in the morning..
cousins sream from downstairs..
I WANT TO FIND *YI MA*!!!
*yi ma means the eldest aunty*
here they came..
climbing the stairs..
*bang bang bang bang*
elephants are coming..
screaming YI MA YI MA YI MA YI MA...
aiyer..
noisy-NYA...
then they play with mummy...
and i continue sleeping...
went back to ipoh at the afternoon..
my mood was bad..
and i cried in front of mummy..
then,
arrive ipoh,
it's time for my violin class and RE2.

and..

it's the end of the day..

time for me to sleep..

prepare to go to school..

new life..

sitting wwith lee kuan yee..

i do miss lin pei wen..

my ma lai gai..

and i'm yim guk gai..

lol..

sad.

sad.
haih..
sad sad sad...
that day got vvip cum lar..
then, need to perform lor..
haih..
the idiot seems like didnt memories at all...
she duno how to play..
ok lor...
but...
she still want to act clever...
she want to show that she play the correct one..
n i play the wrong one..
then jao simply play like that lar..
then i heard what v play..
y not same ge....
then i mai stop...
then she stop oso...
she use that kind of idiotic expression to look at me...
like asking me y i play wrong...
ok lor..
suan..
let u win..
then...
another girl...
the song got roll...
i duno how to roll...
but i tried...
but you just use that word to hurt me...
u asked me..
har? this song got roll gah?
y u din play?
i say i got..
then u said...
i dont realise that u got play lor...
your sound look like 批示 me...
i don't want to argue..
cuz u r senior..
i just keep silence...
silence...
silence...
SILENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will learn roll!
and
roll let you see....
ROLL LET YOU SEE....
i willl....
i will...
I WILL!
just watch out.
kay?!