new year.

new year going to end lerr...
tis year geh angpau..
haiz...
but nvm lor.

new year eve
went to restaurant lor..
eat with relatives...
tis year all my cousins not here..
boo..
just me n sis..
bored dao..


1st day
of cuz..
really bcum 1 day vegetarian..
afternoon that time,
went to 2nd aunt's house..
and saw my cutie niece..
another grace in my family..
grace chia an gel.

2nd day
went to the stupid syuen hotel eat lunch..
eww..
dun like the food..
then after that..
went to kbox..
sing k..
lolz...
then..
at there..
someone invite me to her house..
BBQ!!
ask mum..
n mum allow dy..
after k box,
went to kampar..
my mama's side..
FUN!!
love my baby cousins...
cutie pie..
after ate dinner,
popo cook lar..
then,
play firework..
shong..
but IAN sket the sound..
almost sket till cry dy..
his papa hug him tight..
lolz..
then,
go back to ipoh lur..

3rd day..
aunties(mama's side)
came to my house..
shong..
mama n them play mah jong..
haha..
then papa n uncles chit-chatting...
and me..
of cuz playing wif cousins larr...
then..
630pm..
call mama to fetch me to angel's house..
at first say ait at kopitiam geh..
then..
she say she is so busy n nobody can cum out..
so,
we haad to try to find..
angel called me to tell me the way..
but,
i wat oso duno..
n she call shu mei to tell us the way..
mama listen to the explaination.
at last,
we found it...
HER HOUSE..
mama gave them angpau..
angel, shu mei n sharon..
i know that day i eat very little..
i seldom talk..
haha..
once i arrive..
angel call me to her room..
aduh..
she let me c the opener score..
go to her house..
still wan to c score..
n tat day not feeling so well..
haha..
some funny things..
abt the sotong..
i laugh non stop..
haha...
then..
drank some wine..
n i c that sharon drunk dy...
i love the day..

4th day..
nothing to do..

5th day..
nothing to do too..

6th day..
went to band practise..
then,
angel, shu mei n ashlee cum to my house..
at first is practise the opener geh..
practise ha practise ha..
jao lay on the bed dy..
chatting..
n saw the book..
情不自禁..
haha...
n chat abt some *** thing...
then..
shu mei scream n scream..
she wants to go home..
-.-
but..
angel want to sleep..
haha..
then at last..
ashlee fetch her..
after that..
angel oso go home lor..
i jao go n bath..
shong..
at night..
went to eat korean food with papa n mama..

the last day of the week..
10am tomorrow..
got to go to temple..
go n 拜大姑姑..


my new year life..
hohoho..

confusing.

i think dy lor.
i should not change.
because i duno what to change.
you want me how to change myself wor...
ish...
aiyer.
you say you think you should believe me or not.
aherm.
you believe.
you don't believe.
also like that ge lar.
cause i don't know what to change.
as long as i din bluff my mum.
and i din bluff anyone.
and nobody say i change dy.
and i'm fake.
only you.


i am who i am.
i be back myself.
that's all.
(she teach me geh. i won't forget what you tell me.
thank you very muchie. KAKAKKU.)
KAKAKKU.
you know who r u lar.
lolz.

new year.

tomorrow will be the new year eve..
can gather with relatives.
can meet cousins..
can meet uncle, aunties..
but,
quite bored lar.
cuz im the youngest.
and no one to chat with.
all cousins chat wif jie jie 1..
cuz they chat about university life mar..
aiks..
when only can i chat with them...
=[


NEW YEAR PLAN.
first day.
become one day vegetarian..
so san fu..
no meat.
just vegetable.
lolz..
maybe afternoon that time go to aunty's house drink soup.
cuz every year oso like that..


2ND DAY.
aiyer.
they say go to syuen hotel eat new year buffet wor...
i dun like lar...
y dun go to restaurant eat leh...
after that,
sure will go to 2nd aunt's house lar.
then parents will chat at there..
and i will sit at there and day dreaming..


3RD day.
happy lar..
go back to mum's side.
go back to kampar.
n tat time,
im the 2nd biggest..
at last can hear ppl call me ANN JIE JIE..
hahahahah...
n i can play with my cutie cousins...
baby cousins..
-GRACE CHAI
-JAY CHAI
-IAN WONG
-ALISON LAM
-MELODY LAM
and aunties...
funny..
they are young.
n new genaration minded..
so,
we can play with them..
very sot..
i love playing n chatting with them.
n yet,
thanks popo help me.
support me.
TO JOIN BAND..
lolz..


THE 4TH DAY.
hope can go to cameron or penang lar.
go there with mum's side aunties and uncles..
n oso all my cutie cousins.


THE 5TH DAY.
hope can visit friend's house.
play with them...
chat with them...
sot wif them...
laugh with them...


and the 3 days more,
c c who cum to my hoz lor...
and prepare to go to school...


6th of february.
jie jie will leave us n go to australia.
so,
friday after school,
i got to go to kl dy.
will miss steven tuition.
miss andajaya english tt.
miss ILTI..
miss band practise.
n oso miss RE2 computer lesson.
OH MY GOD.
have to miss so many tuition.
n cant c him on friday too...
sure will very miss him..


aiks.
waiting eric to ask him..
eric,
faster ask.
then tell me the answer lar.
i want to know ar..


that day drank angel's drinks.
not feeling so well..
maybe will not eat so much new year food..
hope will get well soon..


i wan a lot a lot a lot angpau.
i wan to decorate my room.
and oso want to buy my dream phone.

did i really change..??

did i??
DID I?
did i really had changed into another person..??
can anyone tell me..??


am i really that fake?
am i?


how can i change myself..??


stop talking with them..??
stop joining it..??
stop everything that i'm doing now?


who can help me..??
i really don't know am i really changed to a fake EEANN..
where is the real 1..??
where?
WHERE??!!
i don't want to lost friends..
as you say,
you don't want to lost a friend..


I LOST MORE THAN I GAIN..??


who can tell me...
what change me..
i'm really confusing now..
i don't know what to do now.



HELP!!!!
HELP ME PLEASE..


i don't want to lost you all.
please help me.
not by stop talking with me.
is by talking with me and tell me what's wrong and what's right.
correct me when i'm FAKE.


PLEASE.

SHUT UP.

damn you.


call us bitches...
who you think you are.
you just a assistant class rep.
n you scold ppl...
she cried at my place.
of cuz i'm going to call her not to cry.


if not,
how can she go away from my place..??
how can i get back my place.
use your brain to think.
and she is my senior's sister.


we are classmate.
we should not be like that..
i didn't think before to let you all see we go n talk to her..
and yet.
we are not act kind..
don't you think she had changed a lot this year..??


i thought we can become friend.
but after i read your blog,
i just can say,
i'm

SPEECHLESS.


if you still hate us so much.
okay.
it's your choice.
we don't mind.

mama, i miss you

mama...
i very miss you ar..
just one day didn't see you,
i already can't tahan dy..


ytd nite..
i sleep at neighbour's house..
i can't sleep at all..
i try my best to sleep...
but,
at last,
i failed..


my eyes is closing..
but my mind don't want me to sleep...
i can't live without mama...
you know,
i cried many times last night...
i hope i can go home...
and can see mama..


mama...
faster come back...
don't go kl for so many days...
i very miss you n jie jie ar..
days without ur vioce..
n jie jie's action,
i felt its meaningless...


ytd,
i can't sleep..
i think back many things..
i knew i do many bad things last time...

1. i bluff mama n join band.. when mama knew it, she is so sad n dissappointed..
2. i always don't finish KUMON homework..
3. my handwriting is so ugly LAST TIME( not now)
4. my room is so untidy.
5. i always keep rubbish( but those 'rubbish' is very memorable 4 me).
6. i pak to ..
7. i talk wif HIM in phone until very late at night.
8. i use a lot of credits to contact wif HIM..
9. when mama scold me, my face will become very black.

and many more..

i did many things n let mama not happy...

i'm sorry mum..

i will change myself...

and make you happy..

sad day..

quite sad ler today...
i brought wrong socks to neighbour's house..
i brought the short short socks...
then,
at school,
let prefect demerit...
n den,
recess that time,
i forget the school rules...
then,
i ate sweets along the corridor..
let prefect demerit again lar...
i wont do those thing again...
demerit 4 marks a day...
haiz...
i knew i'm wrong lar...
ppl thought i resign for PPS is want to become a bad student...
haiz...
don't know reason geh ppl,
don't simply say lar...
haiz...


a week had over...
think back,
2009 not reali a happy year for me...
just january..
haven finish january..
already many things happen dy...
haiz..
can i change my future..??
i want to live in a happy life...
and study happily...
my target..
get good results and get scholarship
n go to singapore next year..
hope i can do it...
i want my future to be better...
and don't want mama n papa so stress..
now,
jiejie study need a lot of money dy..
i must zhang hei dit ar.!!!!

a funny day

tat day,
i went to the state library after school..
to wait for latihan sukan..
when i arrive there,
i saw you..
how come u will at there 1..??
im not sure ler...


then,you walk towards me...
smiling very YAM..
i see your look,
i cant tahan..
cuz reali very funny...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..

you walk...
and walk...
walk till very near...
n you stop in front of me..
very near...
n then i asked you..
mr *****, what can i help you??
you din answer me..but you ____ me!
no 4 a while..
but very long time gua..
i duno how long izit..
cuz tat time im too sket..
aftertat,
you just smile politely to me..
and walk away..

WEI...
u play me ar..
sudd like that...
and walk away..
responsible a bit lar....


and then,
i just go back to school as fast as i can...
i felt my face is hot n red..
at school,
my fren asked me,
what happen to me...
y my face so red1...
n y my __ like tat 1..
i just cant answer her...


and till now..
we just act nothing happen before...