i'm not fake.. ToT

why??
tell me..
what happened actually??
why you all said that i'm fake?
i'm 'two head snake'?
i'm not!!!
i mix with which gang,
it's non of ur business..
i'm not belongs to any gang..
i just want to be friend with all of you..
don't you all know,
I HATE GOSSIP?!
what you all told me,
i will just forget about them..
i won't tell anyone one..
i'm really dissappointed...
i didn't think before this will happen..

hmm...

最近。。。
很烦咯。。
也不懂怎么说。。
考完了，但生活很烦。。
我终于 update 我的部落格勒。。

不用中文了。。

很麻烦。。

nothing is imposible through the God's way?
someone said that to me..
but..
there's something that are really imposible to achieve..
isn't it?


i 'd learnt a lesson from my english tutor..
her husband involved in a car accidentand now still lying on the bed..
he's comma now..
just because a snatch thief hit his head.. *cruel*
my tutor is so tough..
although her husband wil die anytime, but she chose to continue to teach us..
because life is still have to go on..
no point to commit suicide and ended up our lives..
it doesn't worth..
i hope her husband will recover...


as mummy said..
in this world, there's no such thing. ---> BEST FRIEND.
the one who care us and protect us..
are our family members..
mummy and daddy will always stand by our side..
and now..
i believe in what mummy said..
friends can't give us what we want..


violin..
whee..
i'm going to pay full attention in it..
PMR ended..
it's time for me to practise my violin..
err..
i believe in PRACTISE MAKES PERFECT...


sis is coming back!!!
25th november..
wuhooo...
long time din talk secret with her..
she become more mature and open dy..
hahahaha..
i want to see her..
whether she;s still fat..
or fatter..
or thinner..
but, she always told us that she's slimmer now..
hahahaha...

i hope my mood will not swing anymore..

i'm really moody this few weeks..

don't know why..

i wanna scold people..

speechless.

i'm speechless.
i don't know what can i say.
i can't even describe my feelings now.
everything is so complicated.
maybe i'm the one who make it complicated.
maybe not.
i don't know.
nobody will know.
friends asked me.
i just don't know how to say.
how to start the story.
mummy asked me too.
my tongue twisted.
no words came out from my mouth.
it's really speechless.
=[
what happen?
who can help me?
nobody.
because no one know what am i thinking.
why?
because i don't like to talk about my secret to anyone..

hey.
don't misunderstanding.
it's not because L-O-V-E.

talk to me.

holidays coming.

band camp.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i want to go to kl.

accompany my dad.

my dad is everything.

don't disturb me during this school holidays.

if i were a boy...

IF I WERE A BOY.
what should i do?
i love this song..

If I were a boy

Even just for a day

I’d roll outta bed in the morning

And throw on what I wanted then go

Drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls

I’d kick it with who I wanted

And I’d never get confronted for it.

Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]

If I were a boy

I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl

I swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he’s taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boyI could turn off my phone

Tell evveryone it’s broken

So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone

I’d put myself first

And make the rules as I go

Cause I know that she’d be faithful

Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

(Chorus)

It’s a little too late for you to come back

Say its just a mistake

Think I’d forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you

You thought wrong

(Chorus)

But you’re just a boy

You don’t understand

Yeah you don’t understand

How it feels to love a girl someday

You wish you were a better man

You don’t listen to her

You don’t care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

Cause you’ve taken her for granted

And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

if i were a boy.
i will treat my girl friend very very good.
i will give her what she wants.
i will treat my parents very good.
i won't disappointed them.
i really will be a better man.

because i knew the girl's feeling

when being hurt.

the first time

the first time i updated my blog in this style..

C O L O U R F U L..

because,
now my life is colourful..
had brighten up..
i prefer colourful..
more than red n white now..

P E A C E..

the way i am.

L A B O U R D A Y .
friday was the labour day.
but i still had to go for 2 tuition.
at first,
i thought i had to attend 3..
145pm..
went to steven there...
he skipped some chapter again...
but,
he said it's for our own good...
he will continue teaching other chapter after this...
345pm..
went home ler..
mummy bought pizza for me..
yummy..
500pm,
i thought i had to attend this tuition class..
i waited for a long time outside the tuition centre..
i sms-ed my friends..
asked them whether today got tuition onot..
none of them replied..
then,
i had to call mr anthony ( my tutor )
he answered the phonecall loudly..
MR A : " hello?! "
ANN: "hello, mr anthony. "
MR A: " ah! yes! "
ANN: " i'm yeong. i want to ask whether today got tuition or not? "
MR A :" oh! nononono! no tuition class today due to the labour day."
ANN: " oh thank you. bye." ( *disappointed )
LENG KAH SUEN TOLD ME THAT GOT TUITION.
but then,
lks replied me at 6 pm.
she told me that today got no tuition.
i was like..
arghhh...
nevermind la.
it's okay.


SATURDAY.
mummy prepared some delicious food today.
cuz popo n aunty is coming..
yay.
ian boy is coming..
and of course.
he grow taller n naughtier already..
as usual,
2pm..
went to ILTI..
the boy sitting bside sam cheah is so annoying..
i just ignore him.
concentrate on my studies...
after tuition,
mummy said:" we are going to kampar tonight.."
okay..
then i pack up some clothes and get ready.
arrive there,
saw my other baby cousins there..
at night,
the environment is just like a nursery..
noisy*..
they run around the house..
scream as loud as they can..
and i...
*no eyes see*
study at upstairs...
then,
my cousin sister came..
she took a storybook..
and imitate my pose..
i was lying on the bed..
n she did it too..
what i did,
she just follow...
until my uncle scream...
" ah swan come and sleep now! didi sleep already!!!!!"
then,
she said bye bye to me n walked to the bedroom...


SUNDAY.
early in the morning..
cousins sream from downstairs..
I WANT TO FIND *YI MA*!!!
*yi ma means the eldest aunty*
here they came..
climbing the stairs..
*bang bang bang bang*
elephants are coming..
screaming YI MA YI MA YI MA YI MA...
aiyer..
noisy-NYA...
then they play with mummy...
and i continue sleeping...
went back to ipoh at the afternoon..
my mood was bad..
and i cried in front of mummy..
then,
arrive ipoh,
it's time for my violin class and RE2.

and..

it's the end of the day..

time for me to sleep..

prepare to go to school..

new life..

sitting wwith lee kuan yee..

i do miss lin pei wen..

my ma lai gai..

and i'm yim guk gai..

lol..

sad.

sad.
haih..
sad sad sad...
that day got vvip cum lar..
then, need to perform lor..
haih..
the idiot seems like didnt memories at all...
she duno how to play..
ok lor...
but...
she still want to act clever...
she want to show that she play the correct one..
n i play the wrong one..
then jao simply play like that lar..
then i heard what v play..
y not same ge....
then i mai stop...
then she stop oso...
she use that kind of idiotic expression to look at me...
like asking me y i play wrong...
ok lor..
suan..
let u win..
then...
another girl...
the song got roll...
i duno how to roll...
but i tried...
but you just use that word to hurt me...
u asked me..
har? this song got roll gah?
y u din play?
i say i got..
then u said...
i dont realise that u got play lor...
your sound look like 批示 me...
i don't want to argue..
cuz u r senior..
i just keep silence...
silence...
silence...
SILENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will learn roll!
and
roll let you see....
ROLL LET YOU SEE....
i willl....
i will...
I WILL!
just watch out.
kay?!

sad....

every night..
every morning...
i had to think...
school day..
what should i do...
everyone think i'm so happy with my school life...
ohh...
absolutely not...
i'm not enjoying at all...
i need to think..
teachers...
3p6 is not bad..
not every students bad...
every time teachers ask me..
girl, which class are you from?
i answer 3p6..
then, the teacher will show me the face..
they think 3p6 is bad..
not everyone..
it's not fair to us...
those who are good...


pmr is coming...
got to study hard...
gambateh to every form 3 students.. =]

bye..

holidayssss...

carrot~

it's too sweet... *_*

duno what is it..

found this in the toilet....

aherm...






i'd spent 5 days to attend band camp...






it's really tiring...






but,






i'd learn many things from it...




















back from camp~






the other day ( thursday )






i'd attended mummy's cousin's wedding dinner..






the bride is so beautiful...






=]]




















then.






we went to cameron again...






quite relax...

RABBIT ARRRRRHHH.........

LOLZ..

bored...

let ppl call me to update my blog...
ong joo yen...
i update dy lar..
happy?
ice-cream potong ar...
ahhh..
RE2 teacher..
miss Fong Yee...
STOP CALLING ME YOONG EE ANN LAR...
im Yeong Ee Ann ar...
hehe...
long time din update my blog lu...
ntg to write...
wa..
claudia...
gambateh ar..
haha..

valentine's day...

nicole's house got thief..
dun be so sket..
it had past lar...
luckily u are safe..


ashlee..
sick dy lar..
faster recover back..
dun wait till fever ar..
drink more water..


sui cheng's birthday..
wish her ady...


goh kar moon is at nan hwa's concert...
she said it's very nice...
really..??
mr ho perform that time very high wor..
really..??
n oso she saw *** *** *** lar...


n oso ong joo yen lar...
at australia..
how r u leh...
have u start ur plan??
wash the car for ur relatives to earn money....
earn dy,
must buy ingredient to make ice-cream potong...
then..
when i cum,
make it again..
i wan to eat...
=]
i think i'm coming on july...
but my mum duno got go to perth onot...
n maybe she wont let me to go n find a boy...



that's all for today..
tomorrow got band practise..
need to sleep lur...
=]

proud of myself.. LOLZ

first time i finish my art all by myself...

the teknik titik..

draw till so K..

but nvm le..

as long as i had put an effort on it..

=]

will miss jie jie..

today is friday..
but,
im at kl now..
ponteng 1 day..
din go to school..
cuz there's something important to do..

morning..
woke up..
my feeling today..
very weird..
cant describe..
went to eat pizza as breakfast...
but..
i found out that..
my pizza..
got a little cockroach...
then..
i tell the waitress..
ans they change a new pizza for us...

after that,
went to buy something for sister..
i ask her what she want,
she just say she want a mechanical pencil..
lolz..
then i bought her a purple colour 1 lor...

5pm..
going to airport...
along the journey..
mama n papa keep on telling jie jie what to do in airport..
n bla bla bla...
my weird feeling came..
and i just kept quiet n look outside the window..

arrive airport..
help jie jie to take her luggage..
her 2 luggage overweight dy...
too many things lar..
so, she got to hold 1 bag into the airplane..
then..
she got to go...
mum hug her so tight..
and cry cry cry..
then..
popo too...
then i cant stand dy..
i cry oso...
sobs..
T_T..

afterthat..
went to eat at the kfc lar..
cuz want to meet up with aunty..
after eating at the kfc,
went out to eat steamboat again..
gosh..
it's so full...


went home~
mummy cry again..
aiyor...

take care lar..
jie jie..
will miss you..
=]

moody sunday =[

sunday..

7.00am..
my phone alarm clock rang...

but i din wake up..

i juz switch off the alarm clock and sleep till my another alarm clock rang..

8.00am..

*_*

cant open my eyes..

walk to upstairs..

lay on the another bed for awhile..

feel so good..

then sudd..

heard my neighbour singing..

urgh!

polluting the environment..
then prepare to go to 拜大姑姑..

10am..

arrive kek lok si temple....

all my relatives at there dy...

aiks..

miss my aunt so much..

if she still alive,

im sure she will be happy to see jie jie going out to study...

haih..

while waiting..

uncles and aunties and mama discussing abt Yeong's family tradision..

HEART PROBLEM..

and me..

listening..

kept quiet..

afterthat..

went to RE2..

let the teacher scold..

cuz play MSN..

feel so bad..

but the teacher ntg 1 lar..

aunties n uncles(mum side) came to my house..

n of cuz my 2 cousins..

Grace and Jay lar..
Jay is so cute..

but Grace..

duno y..

i always quarrel with her..

quarrel with a 6 years old girl.. -____-

cuz she always 'no big no small'

i cant stand her attitude..

then Jay sudd took my kumon trophy and play..

play ha play ha..

my trophy broke into 2..

ahhhhh...

my heart damn pain..

my first silver medal..

n oso my last silver medal...

sobs..

what to do..

call a 4 years old boy give a new 1 to me meh.

haiz..

suan le...

after they went home..

i cried..

i cried non stop..

not bcuz of the trophy..

actually canot say cry..

just tearsdrop..

haha..

MISSING YOU =]

MUAX.

new year.

new year going to end lerr...
tis year geh angpau..
haiz...
but nvm lor.

new year eve
went to restaurant lor..
eat with relatives...
tis year all my cousins not here..
boo..
just me n sis..
bored dao..


1st day
of cuz..
really bcum 1 day vegetarian..
afternoon that time,
went to 2nd aunt's house..
and saw my cutie niece..
another grace in my family..
grace chia an gel.

2nd day
went to the stupid syuen hotel eat lunch..
eww..
dun like the food..
then after that..
went to kbox..
sing k..
lolz...
then..
at there..
someone invite me to her house..
BBQ!!
ask mum..
n mum allow dy..
after k box,
went to kampar..
my mama's side..
FUN!!
love my baby cousins...
cutie pie..
after ate dinner,
popo cook lar..
then,
play firework..
shong..
but IAN sket the sound..
almost sket till cry dy..
his papa hug him tight..
lolz..
then,
go back to ipoh lur..

3rd day..
aunties(mama's side)
came to my house..
shong..
mama n them play mah jong..
haha..
then papa n uncles chit-chatting...
and me..
of cuz playing wif cousins larr...
then..
630pm..
call mama to fetch me to angel's house..
at first say ait at kopitiam geh..
then..
she say she is so busy n nobody can cum out..
so,
we haad to try to find..
angel called me to tell me the way..
but,
i wat oso duno..
n she call shu mei to tell us the way..
mama listen to the explaination.
at last,
we found it...
HER HOUSE..
mama gave them angpau..
angel, shu mei n sharon..
i know that day i eat very little..
i seldom talk..
haha..
once i arrive..
angel call me to her room..
aduh..
she let me c the opener score..
go to her house..
still wan to c score..
n tat day not feeling so well..
haha..
some funny things..
abt the sotong..
i laugh non stop..
haha...
then..
drank some wine..
n i c that sharon drunk dy...
i love the day..

4th day..
nothing to do..

5th day..
nothing to do too..

6th day..
went to band practise..
then,
angel, shu mei n ashlee cum to my house..
at first is practise the opener geh..
practise ha practise ha..
jao lay on the bed dy..
chatting..
n saw the book..
情不自禁..
haha...
n chat abt some *** thing...
then..
shu mei scream n scream..
she wants to go home..
-.-
but..
angel want to sleep..
haha..
then at last..
ashlee fetch her..
after that..
angel oso go home lor..
i jao go n bath..
shong..
at night..
went to eat korean food with papa n mama..

the last day of the week..
10am tomorrow..
got to go to temple..
go n 拜大姑姑..


my new year life..
hohoho..

confusing.

i think dy lor.
i should not change.
because i duno what to change.
you want me how to change myself wor...
ish...
aiyer.
you say you think you should believe me or not.
aherm.
you believe.
you don't believe.
also like that ge lar.
cause i don't know what to change.
as long as i din bluff my mum.
and i din bluff anyone.
and nobody say i change dy.
and i'm fake.
only you.


i am who i am.
i be back myself.
that's all.
(she teach me geh. i won't forget what you tell me.
thank you very muchie. KAKAKKU.)
KAKAKKU.
you know who r u lar.
lolz.

new year.

tomorrow will be the new year eve..
can gather with relatives.
can meet cousins..
can meet uncle, aunties..
but,
quite bored lar.
cuz im the youngest.
and no one to chat with.
all cousins chat wif jie jie 1..
cuz they chat about university life mar..
aiks..
when only can i chat with them...
=[


NEW YEAR PLAN.
first day.
become one day vegetarian..
so san fu..
no meat.
just vegetable.
lolz..
maybe afternoon that time go to aunty's house drink soup.
cuz every year oso like that..


2ND DAY.
aiyer.
they say go to syuen hotel eat new year buffet wor...
i dun like lar...
y dun go to restaurant eat leh...
after that,
sure will go to 2nd aunt's house lar.
then parents will chat at there..
and i will sit at there and day dreaming..


3RD day.
happy lar..
go back to mum's side.
go back to kampar.
n tat time,
im the 2nd biggest..
at last can hear ppl call me ANN JIE JIE..
hahahahah...
n i can play with my cutie cousins...
baby cousins..
-GRACE CHAI
-JAY CHAI
-IAN WONG
-ALISON LAM
-MELODY LAM
and aunties...
funny..
they are young.
n new genaration minded..
so,
we can play with them..
very sot..
i love playing n chatting with them.
n yet,
thanks popo help me.
support me.
TO JOIN BAND..
lolz..


THE 4TH DAY.
hope can go to cameron or penang lar.
go there with mum's side aunties and uncles..
n oso all my cutie cousins.


THE 5TH DAY.
hope can visit friend's house.
play with them...
chat with them...
sot wif them...
laugh with them...


and the 3 days more,
c c who cum to my hoz lor...
and prepare to go to school...


6th of february.
jie jie will leave us n go to australia.
so,
friday after school,
i got to go to kl dy.
will miss steven tuition.
miss andajaya english tt.
miss ILTI..
miss band practise.
n oso miss RE2 computer lesson.
OH MY GOD.
have to miss so many tuition.
n cant c him on friday too...
sure will very miss him..


aiks.
waiting eric to ask him..
eric,
faster ask.
then tell me the answer lar.
i want to know ar..


that day drank angel's drinks.
not feeling so well..
maybe will not eat so much new year food..
hope will get well soon..


i wan a lot a lot a lot angpau.
i wan to decorate my room.
and oso want to buy my dream phone.

did i really change..??

did i??
DID I?
did i really had changed into another person..??
can anyone tell me..??


am i really that fake?
am i?


how can i change myself..??


stop talking with them..??
stop joining it..??
stop everything that i'm doing now?


who can help me..??
i really don't know am i really changed to a fake EEANN..
where is the real 1..??
where?
WHERE??!!
i don't want to lost friends..
as you say,
you don't want to lost a friend..


I LOST MORE THAN I GAIN..??


who can tell me...
what change me..
i'm really confusing now..
i don't know what to do now.



HELP!!!!
HELP ME PLEASE..


i don't want to lost you all.
please help me.
not by stop talking with me.
is by talking with me and tell me what's wrong and what's right.
correct me when i'm FAKE.


PLEASE.

SHUT UP.

damn you.


call us bitches...
who you think you are.
you just a assistant class rep.
n you scold ppl...
she cried at my place.
of cuz i'm going to call her not to cry.


if not,
how can she go away from my place..??
how can i get back my place.
use your brain to think.
and she is my senior's sister.


we are classmate.
we should not be like that..
i didn't think before to let you all see we go n talk to her..
and yet.
we are not act kind..
don't you think she had changed a lot this year..??


i thought we can become friend.
but after i read your blog,
i just can say,
i'm

SPEECHLESS.


if you still hate us so much.
okay.
it's your choice.
we don't mind.

mama, i miss you

mama...
i very miss you ar..
just one day didn't see you,
i already can't tahan dy..


ytd nite..
i sleep at neighbour's house..
i can't sleep at all..
i try my best to sleep...
but,
at last,
i failed..


my eyes is closing..
but my mind don't want me to sleep...
i can't live without mama...
you know,
i cried many times last night...
i hope i can go home...
and can see mama..


mama...
faster come back...
don't go kl for so many days...
i very miss you n jie jie ar..
days without ur vioce..
n jie jie's action,
i felt its meaningless...


ytd,
i can't sleep..
i think back many things..
i knew i do many bad things last time...

1. i bluff mama n join band.. when mama knew it, she is so sad n dissappointed..
2. i always don't finish KUMON homework..
3. my handwriting is so ugly LAST TIME( not now)
4. my room is so untidy.
5. i always keep rubbish( but those 'rubbish' is very memorable 4 me).
6. i pak to ..
7. i talk wif HIM in phone until very late at night.
8. i use a lot of credits to contact wif HIM..
9. when mama scold me, my face will become very black.

and many more..

i did many things n let mama not happy...

i'm sorry mum..

i will change myself...

and make you happy..